i say your name, head in hands
in great, heaving sobs,
and between glances at the starlight
that blurs together in my eyes
telling me maybe…
it is not so bad.
but it is a nightmare
that lingers at the forefront of
everything
and i cannot escape.
my chest is
heavy
beneath the weight
of my love for you
and the sound of your voice.i can’t promise you the world
but i can promise everything
that i am
and everything i will be
and i want that to be enough for you
because you are enough for me.i want to be found
in all this darkness
i want to be sought after
and searched for
i want to be the light of your life
because i’ve never
been more than a flicker.and i just want you
to be the one to find
and need
and want
my scarred heart, my empty hands.me
in all my distrust,
and all my weariness,
my exhaustion and fear,
my need for touch
at the most peaceful times
and my need for distance
when my world is in danger.but i am
never
the one who is wanted.
<3C
2:21am
